it's like a growing cloud of helplessness and emptiness.

devouring me till im desolate.

i want to break free of this but i just can't seem to.

i want to run free, hair flying and mussed.

i want me to be sun kissed.

i want me to be so tired everynight i don't have dreams.

why is it so damn hard?

i hate me alot sometimes.

am i the only one having these complexities?

or am i unknowingly bipolar. no i dont think so.

sigh.